Thursday, October 13, 2011

Senior Struggles...and Inspiration

Hey Preps!

It has been a week since I wrote a post.  Yikes.  Forgive me?  Can I please at least explain?

This week has consisted of:
35 hours of work...all resulting in 5am wake-ups.
5 mid-terms, and 1 to go. (yes I know I should spell out five and one...but I'm not going to...except I just did...ugh)

Excuse me.  I was told senior year is easy. WHEN?

Because it's not going that way right now.  I am completely swamped.  Swamped to the point that I write this post and am disgusted with how ADHD and grammatically incorrect it is.  School is overpowering my creativity.  That seldom happens.  Yet every sentence I write, I know exactly what I am doing wrong.  School honestly is a creativity destroyer.  It's like the Reaper of blogging, I swear...

That reminds me of a quote from Einstein: "The only thing that interferes with my learning is my education".  In many ways I agree with this statement...for example, I write about the things my professors want me to, attend classes I wouldn't if it wasn't a requirement, and find myself learning more about myself in the quiet hours of writing on my own, contemplating who I am and what I want in my life.

Don't get me wrong, I believe a college education is extremely important.  Furthermore, I believe that graduate school is just as important in today's society in order to achieve a high paying job and live the American dream.  However, parts of me feel as if everything will work out in my life.  Maybe that is a trivial statement, but as I enter my last semester and a half of undergrad, I am more at peace than ever.  I know who I am, and now know what I want...and no one can take that from me.

Trust me, I still work hard...gosh. I am exhausted from how much effort I put into school.  I meet with professors to perfect theses for papers, I barely sleep to do everything I need to, yet I now know that in less than a year, I will be free to start achieving my life goals.

I will not settle. Ever. I want my life to be an ever-growing experience.  I want to constantly learn, play, experience, and strive for more.

As many of you know, Steve Jobs, Apple's co-founder recently passed away.  I was talking with a professor after class one day about my life goals, and she had me stay and watch one of his speech's that he gave at Stanford's commencement a few years back.  It was such an inspirational and motivating speech to hear for me.  I thought I would share it with you...and hope you can gain the same thing from it as I did.  He truly knew how to live life to the fullest.

We are blessed with every single day we are given...why not live it to the best of our abilities?


The City Boy said...

6 so sorry :(.

I feel the same as life is a whirlwind of school and work but I know that im working towards achieving what I want

Miss Southern Prep said...

I feel the exact same way! School is so stressful and overwhelming, but I know once I finish, I'll be even closer to achieving everything I want out of life! Good luck on your last midterm!

Grace said...

Oooh, sounds rough! Hope the Midterms went well. I totally know how you feel about losing creativity through school.

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